Dear thirteen year-old self,
There are so many things that I have learned over the past eight years (ew that sounds weird…) that I would tell you if I could. I would tell you not to become friends with a certain person or don’t talk to a certain boy or don’t forget to do that huge assignment or a number of other things. I am going to spare you those details and just tell you about some of the basics.
Friends are going to come and go. It is okay. People change and you will too.
Be nice to everyone you meet and learn from them. Every single person you meet will have a different story to tell, and it is amazing to listen to them all.
The world is going to hand you many hardships. Don’t blame yourself or the world. Life is tough sometimes, but you are tougher.
Control your anger. Take responsibility for your actions and don’t blame yourself when it isn’t your responsibility.
Listen to your father. You will realize one day that he is the most amazing man in your life and he was right about basically everything. When that happens, he will become your role model and bestfriend.
Your step-family loves you. They are going to become extremely important to you in your future. Stop fighting them.
When somebody asks you to smoke a cigarette with them, don’t do it. You will smack yourself later while trying to figure out why you started smoking in the first place.
Instead of doing drugs, go to the gym, ride your bike, or go hangout at the barn. Use all of that energy you have for healthy things because one day, you will want it back.
Alcohol is alcohol. You will have plenty of time to be stupid and drunk, don’t do it now.
Trust people. This is always going to be a very foreign thing for you, but you will meet a few people along the way who you can truly believe. These people will fill your heart and change your mentality.
Enjoy your silly, simple, pointless relationships. Although you will learn that being alone is okay, relationships seem to get more and more difficult.
Keep swimming, it is good for you. Although it allows more time for sleep, you will regret quitting half way through high school.
At this point, horses are fun to you. In a few years they are going to save you. After this, you will realize the importance of horses in your life. Talk to them, learn from them.
That english class you hate attending, attend it. Try to learn from it because one day, you might actually enjoy writing.
Believe it or not, one day you will love school. You will appreciate all of the new information you can learn if you just take the time to learn it. You are going to become so engulfed in all of the amazing things around you, which is going to make it nearly impossible to decide what to do with your life. Ignore that, take it all in.
Stop trying to grow up so fast! You will have plenty of time to be a grown up and guess what, it blows.
Most importantly, you DO NOT know everything. You are not the best friend or girlfriend, you are not the smartest person in the world, you are not fooling everyone with your bullshit, and you have no idea what you are going to do for the rest of your life. This is not the end of the world. You are going to find out that being wrong is okay, and actually, you are going to get a lot of practice at it!
Your twenty-one year-old self