Today

This past month has tested my patience like no other. It was the last month of college classes and the start of finals, the last month of working 4 jobs and an internship while being a full time student, the first month being long distance with my girlfriend, a month full of crazy stuff going on back home, and the last month of what has been normal to me for the past four years. Everybody keeps asking if I am excited to graduate. I always answer, “well I am excited to be done with these classes”. The truth is, it hasn’t hit me at all that I am actually GRADUATING. You think about that moment for years, even your whole life. Graduating college. To think that I will be walking across that stage a few days from today is unbelievable.

Today I took my last undergraduate final. I studied for it. Ahead of time actually. But I could have studied more. I think I have said that about every single final exam I have ever taken. And just like that it is finished and over, so it doesn’t matter how much I studied anymore. The only thing standing between me and being finished is a stupid 2 page paper. So instead of writing that, I am writing this. I figured I might as well procrastinate the last assignment, just like way too many before it.

Today, 3 different bosses/professors told me to make sure that I see them before I leave. If there was one thing that would make graduating sink in, that was it. I have spent countless hours with these individuals over the past couple of years. I can’t imagine not seeing them on a weekly basis, some even daily. Not only them, but many others. My college has become a second home to me, and so many people there have became family. Recently my friends and I have been looking at old pictures and talking about all of these amazing memories we have made here. Graduating is so exciting and long awaited, but it is completely bittersweet.

Today, a professor told me that when I am working in the area next year (hopefully) that I have to come talk to her classes about working in a research laboratory setting. We talked about this previously, but it is here. I am not going to be a student anymore. I’ll be the guest lecturer that so many students struggle to sit through but really appreciate having there. I’ll be an adult or something.

 

Today I realized that tomorrow, my undergraduate career will be finished.

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When Your Pituitary Gland Gets Confused

I know that I have not posted barely anything on here in months. I actually haven’t really written much in months. Here is why:

Starting in July, I kept getting sick randomly. Headaches occurring more often than ever before, exhaustion constantly sweeping over me, and out-of-the-blue nausea and vomiting spells. The beginning of this coincided  with my summer internship that I had to drive 45 minutes to almost 7 days a week. Needless to say, it sucked, but I did what I could to make it work in between hospital and doctor visits. Fast forward to a couple of weeks later, the beginning of the fall semester of my senior year of college. I am living with my bestfriend in an apartment off campus and we are ready to have an amazing year. BAM, Friday afternoon one week I get a migraine that won’t go away no matter what. The following Thursday, after almost passing out in class, my roommate drove me to the ER where they found that my pituitary gland was enlarged. Cool, so now what? After bloodwork and an MRI, they found that my hormone levels were elevated. Yes, get your laughs in, my hormones are crazy! But really, it is a pretty frustrating thing. After some medication changes, I am starting to feel slightly normal again, so hopefully that was the cause of this ruckus.

What is the point of this story exactly? Honestly, probably the biggest cliche in existence; never give up. Typically, I am a very upbeat and happy person. Having a chronic illness for any period of time is exhausting, especially as a college student. My headaches were so bad that I could not study or write papers. I could not eat normally because I was constantly feeling sick. I could not hangout with my friends, except for on my couch, because I was always tired. I could not go to the gym or ride horses because of all of the above. I could not do any of the things that I needed or wanted to do as a college student, and it happened at the beginning of my senior year. I know, fun times. A few days ago, I finally hit the point of frustration. I was mad at the world for throwing this difficulty at me and I wanted nothing to do with being strong anymore. I was done. After taking a nap and waking up on a better side of the bed, I had an epiphany. I told myself to get over it. Yes, I am still frustrated, and yes, I am ready to be caught up in all of my classes, and yes, I hate feeling horrible just as much as anyone else does. But as always, life goes on.

One day, I will look back at this and laugh at the imperfect timing of my pituitary gland’s confusion, but for now, I will just keep moving forward.

Behind the Scenes

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Last week I was tagged by Jenna at Big Dreams Grand Schemes in a blog post that explains her writing process. The purpose of this post is to share your individual writing process and tag three people at the end, creating a chain. I think this is so cool! It is always great to learn from one another, and this is a simple thing to explain to others. Here are the four questions that I have to answer:

  1. What am I working on?
  2. How does my work differ from others of its genre?
  3. Why do I write what I do?
  4. How does my writing process work?

The three bloggers I would like to tag in this train are:

  1. Emily at Class and Sass
  2. Nasya at Turquoise and Tortoiseshells
  3. Megan at The Artistic Brunette

Without further ado, here are my answers to the four questions!

1. What am I working on?

At this point of my blogging career, I am basically all over the place. In an attempt to become a little more organized, I started a calendar for my blog, but I don’t follow it to the tee yet. It is hard for me to plan what I am going to want to post sometimes, because a lot of my posts are random stories or ideas that I come up with. I constantly write down random things. Sometimes they turn into a story, list, or any other blog post, and sometimes they get saved in the “Blog” folder on my computer and stay there. My hope for the summer is to get my blog more organized and finish some of my unfinished posts so I can share them. That is what I’m working on right now.

2. How does my work differ from others of its genre?

This is a tough question for me because I don’t really have a genre. I write and post whatever I want, whenever I want. The only “genre” I believe I fit into is Lifestyle or College (does that count?). My blog was created as an outlet, so I post whatever makes me happy. If I make other people happy along the way, well then I am even happier.

3. Why do I write what I do?

The main purpose of my writing is to escape. It has become a stress relief for me. I enter into my little bubble and roll with it. Therefore, I write things that interest me. Whether it be a story from my crazy life as a college student, my favorite Netflix shows at the moment, or an exciting purchase that I make, each post was a tool for me.

4. How does my writing process work?

First, I have an idea. Let me tell you, I have approximately fifty ideas a day and clearly, I do not post that much. A lot of my ideas are silly and short lived. Some of my ideas are for books that I dream about writing one day. Finally, some of my ideas become blog posts.

Once I decide I want to elaborate on an idea, I write. It’s as simple as that. I write, delete, and rewrite way too much, but I write. Also, I research. I read articles about various topics, books, short stories, other bloggers posts, etc. As an inspiring scientist, I am a firm believer that research and practice pave the way to improvement. Hopefully it is working!

Thanks for including me in this train! I am excited to read more posts from the tags!

“14 Things for the Next 14 Months” Follow-Up

On March 16th I posted a list of fourteen things I wanted to do before I graduated college (fourteen months left at that time). You can read that list here. Now, two months later, I am twelve months away from graduation and I wanted to share the things that I have started or completed on my list.

14 Things 2 months

1. Summer 2014 Internship (In Progress)

After applying to approximately 14 internships (yes that number doubled since the original post because I found more) I am doing an internship close to my school at a wildlife rehabilitation and care center. I applied to internships all over the country that would have been amazing. I was denied for a few and never heard back from some others. I learned that this process is tedious and stressful. Although I did not get some of the really cool internships I found, I am so excited to work with the orphaned wildlife at the center I decided on. Don’t worry, I will write about my experiences and post a lot of pictures!

2. Sign a Lease (Completed)

My bestfriend and I signed a lease for our apartment a few days before May 1st. We have been talking about getting an apartment together since our freshman year and we are more than excited that the time has finally come!

3. Learn to Cook (In Progress)

Slowly but surely I will learn to cook. This is going to take me all year because clearly, you can’t learn over night. I can say that I have been taking the initiative to learn from others recently, so that is the first step in the right direction.

4. Read More (In Progress/Complete)

I wasn’t sure if this was in progress or complete because I have been making way more time to read, but I am also going to try to continue to do so. Especially that it is officially summer, I am really making an effort to make any amount of time each day to read a little.

5. Write More (In Progress)

I have definitely been trying to write and/or post more! I have started using a calendar to plan my posts for this blog. More importantly, I have been trying to gather ideas that pop into my head. Hopefully they will turn into some good posts, stories, books, etc.

6. Win My First Election (Completed)

I ran for Senior Class President 2014-2015 and I won!!! I can’t believe it. I am so unbelievably grateful for this opportunity.

7. Volunteer

I used to volunteer occasionally at various horse farms and animal shelters. Helping animals is the most rewarding experience (obviously considering that is what I plan to devote my life to). I want to make time to do this again.

8. Improve My Horseback Riding (In Progress)

This will continuously be on my list. Most likely for the rest of my life. You can never be too good at your sport.

9. Continue Getting In Shape (In Progress)

I think this is the one I am most proud of. For the most part, I have stuck with this! The last few weeks of the semester were crazy so getting to the gym as much as I wanted to was basically impossible. Now that it is summer, I have been making it to the gym almost everyday. I love it.

10. Pay Off My Car

This is self-explanatory. I traded in my first car, a 2004 Jeep Liberty, to get a 2012 Chevy Cruze. Being a semi-environmental freak, I wanted a car with better gas mileage, especially since I drive back and forth to school. I love my car, but I am over the payments so I want my loan to be paid off by graduation.

11. Save Money

Again, this is self-explanatory. Currently, all of my money goes to my car and basically useless stuff (food, gas, alcohol, etc.). I really want to start building up some savings again.

12. Stop Being Late to Everything

I am constantly running in every direction. As much as I try to be a “professional”, I am late for everything. Literally everything. This needs to change before I have to grow up and get a real job. What better time to improve on something than the present?

13. Graduate With Honors

I guess this is self-explanatory. I like getting good grades and having a good GPA so I want to maintain that and graduate with honors. *Nerd Alert*

14. Have Fun (In Progress)

Save the best for last. I consider myself a hard worker, others say too hard, and I really don’t leave enough “me time”. As cliché as it sounds, I want to have an unforgettable senior year surrounded by my bestfriends that have been by my side since the beginning of college.

The results are in. After the first two months I have completed two things on my list and started seven. Not too shabby considering I still have twelve months to go! Follow along, I will continue to post updates for this list until graduation!

Sunday’s Taste of Euphoria (#7)

This past week was crazy to say the least. Finals week. Enough said. There were so many good times and a lot of sad goodbyes, but it is now officially summer!

 

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ONE// On Sunday, my residents and I got together for the last time (at least for this year). We made shirts that said “May House Monsters” on them, played a game of kickball, went to dinner together, and just hungout. I literally cannot put into words how much this groups of individuals mean to me. They made my second and final year as an RA unforgettable and now I have so many new amazing friends.

TWO// Wednesday officially ended my junior year of college. WOW. It was great to finally relax after two and a half weeks of exams, papers, and finals.

THREE// Wednesday night I got to spend time with a group of friends. It was a bittersweet night. We had so much fun, but it was the last time we got to spend time together before saying goodbye for the summer.

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FOUR// Saturday I made my trip home. I can’t believe my junior year is over. Time to cuddle with my dog, workout, read, and do whatever I want to do. Finally.

 

Also, Happy Mother’s Day to all of the wonderful moms out there!

Senior Status?

Today I made the four hour trip from my college in Massachusetts to my hometown in Pennsylvania. Usually this trip is simple. I have done it over 20 times throughout the past three years. This trip wasn’t so great today considering I was in the hospital yesterday afternoon, getting fluids… Yay for being dehydrated at the end of finals week!

Anyways, I am home for summer. The last summer as a undergraduate student. My junior year is over. How does this happen? Where does time go?

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The Last Selfie as a College Junior

Don’t get me wrong, I am so excited for it to be summer. I could go on forever about the books I am going to read, how much time I am going to spend with my dog, being able to go to the gym every day, etc., but that is not what I want to talk about right now.

Junior Year Recap (as far as school stuff goes): My fall semester classes included Physics 1, Biochemistry, Environmental Science 1, and US History. Besides being a full time student, I worked as a Resident Assistant in a freshman house, peer tutor, and shuttle driver. I was apart of various clubs and rode for my college’s IHSA Equestrian team. This past semester my classes were Physics 2, Equine Nutrition, Equine Care, and Cell Biology. Also, I picked up a position as an office assistant in the campus activities office. This looks crazy after I see it all written down, but I survived somehow!

So, now that this year as come to an end, I would like to admit that I am scared. I am scared to be a senior because it means the end is coming. I have had an amazing three years at my college and I am not ready for it to end. I love all of the jobs I have had, the people I have met, and the friends I have made. Besides the fear of leaving my school, I also do not have a plan yet. I have a million ideas of things I want to do after I graduate college, but nothing is set in stone. I could apply for Master’s programs in Wildlife Conservation and Rehabilitation or Equine Nutrition, or I could move down south an work at a horse farm, or I could get a job in research. Literally, the possibilities are endless. Of course most undergraduate students have these worries, but when it is you, it really blows. I feel like I can’t shake this feeling. I am constantly thinking of scenarios that might happen after graduation, but I still haven’t determined a plan.

I guess for now all I can do is go with the flow, relax, and enjoy summer.

Sunday’s Taste of Euphoria (#6)

For those of you who don’t know what this is, let me explain. As an overbooked college student, running around like a chicken with my head cut off everyday, I wanted to reflect on the things that make me happy. I think it is so important to take a moment and realize that no matter how stressful and crazy your week was, at least one thing had to make you happy. So that is where “Sunday’s Taste of Euphoria” came from. I thought I would share my happy things and maybe other people would start to reflect on their happy things.

I missed last week because I was busy study for exams all weekend. Just like I should be doing right now, but I wanted to post something quick.

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Our “we are so excited” Faces

ONE// Monday Emily and I signed the lease for our apartment! YAY!

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My Supervisor Katie and I.

TWO// Thursday was the end of the year banquet for Residence Life. You can read all about my experience with residence life here and see more pictures from the banquet and the past two years. Although this ending is sad, I am so overwhelmingly happy to have met so many amazing people and make so many memories with them.

THREE// Although I had a crazy day at work on Saturday, it is always rewarding to help the dogs that come into our rehab center! I got to spend time with so many of them and also one of my favorites came in to swim!

FOUR// My residents and I had a serious night of bonding when I got back from work. I will definitely never forget it!